I’ve always wanted to leave a mark in the world. I think many of us do. We want to know our lives stood for something. And this may sound terrible. But somehow me going through this, and being honest about the ups and downs has done that. I personally don’t understand it. But in a (maybe selfish) way it helps justify to me about going through this. I do feel selfish in saying this, but knowing I’m having some sort of impact makes a difference. Makes the joys and struggles seem more justified. I am not doing anything spectacular though. It is Him that is doing it. He’s the one that keeps me putting one foot in front of the other. It is him that keeps me striving. All glory and praise to Him.