The Path, Part Two

The past weeks have brought many changes.  But the changes this week are wonderful and joyful. I know next week I will not need to get any more of those horrible drugs!  How awesome is it to be done chemo???  It is an odd thought to know next week, I will feel better than this week.

And this week, excluding that annoying numbness, I am feeling better than I have since early April.  I went to horseback riding lessons with kiddo last night and could really feel the difference in my body.  I felt stronger than I have in ages.  I was able to enjoy every moment and not feel exhausted afterwards.  I could post (   for the whole lesson and feel wonderful after wards.  Posting is like doing squats and the thigh master, simultaneously, on a horse.  It is getting more natural.  My balance is getting better along with my strength on the horse.  So I say YEAH to me.

Additionally I have been rearranging my house.  I have sat in the same place for about 6 months while feeling horrible.  So I am in the process of switching my living room and dining room.  It is mentally refreshing to have things look different, even if it is still in process.  It is a magical curtain between my times of being sick and my current time of recovery.  It is a new fresh page.  It is a sense of relief.

One final thing I have done to celebrate, is to purchase a “survivor” bracelet from Etsy.  It is a reminder of what I have accomplished.  I still feel that anyone would do as I have done.  That my feat is nothing exceptional.  However, I like having that daily reminder that I have survived something difficult.  (My new bracelet)

There are rays of sunlight starting to show.  There are things that are starting to turn around.  I will never be the same, physically, mentally, emotionally, but that doesn’t necessarily have to be a bad thing.  I am the new me.


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